it happen again~

salam to all.

bulan ni, aku rase bulan paling TOUGH bagi aku. tggl lg brape hari nk abis Feb, aku harap jgn la ade penambahan BAD news lg. really HATE it! haih~

1st BAD news;

act, kt prevoius entry aku ade bagitau yg aku gi interview. tp bukn kt company mane2 pn, interview dlm company aku jgk. well, the position is one level up from now. act, at the 1st, to be honest, aku SGT berharap. ye laa, klu fikir dr segi kewangan, mmg aku perlu sgt position tu. sume sbb DUIT. tp, aku tak fikir secara WARAS mse tu. and bile fikir2 balik, bincg ngn Mr.Bf dan family, then baru aku realize yg position tu tak penting bg aku sbb if aku da commit ngn position tu, lg byk benda aku kene tau and mase kerja pn agak pjg instead of 9hours. da working hours pjg, cane plak aku nk gi kelas kn? okay, mule2 sem org bleh la nk kautim, tp klu da lame2, tak ke rase cm susah kn org? hmmm. then, dr cara dan gaya management pn aku da tau mmg dorg takkan naikkn aku utk gi position tu. so, again, it happen again! aku SURRENDER! for my own good. duit tu mane2 pn boleh cari kn, yg penting settle kn MBA.

*sebenarnye, result interview tak kua lg, tp aku tau laaaaa*

2nd BAD news;

before this ade besfren aku da break, sebab perangai and da sebulan jgk aku try utk wat kwn aku tu calm down. tp dlm proses melegakan kwn aku tu, one of my besties plak break ngn bf die. Ya Allah. dugaan ape la ni. lepas 1-1. punca? ade org ketiga! haih. sakit hati aku dengar. it happen again! it happen again!!!! aku always doa supaya kwn2 aku dan org sekeliling aku tak kene mcm aku kene dlu. but, IT HAPPEN AGAIN!!!! Ya Allah, cukup lah dugaan yg Kau bagi ni. kami tak kuat Ya Allah.

kesimpulan;

about work, aku try lg wat yg terbaek even aku rase aku dah wat yg terbaek. and aku start cari keje lain semula. klu dapat, aku nekad nk blah! serius da tawar hati and kecik hati!and about life plak, i need to change! byk lg benda yg aku kurg especially dr segi amalan. mungkin sbb tu Allah nk uji sekuat dan setabah mane hambaNya. about love life, let it go with the flow. stick with plan and focus on study 1st!

[notaku: mari berubah kearah yg lebih baek!]

sweetheart~

it's been 8 month we were together. i'm so happy with u. u always there when i need u. u always support me. u always give me strength to live my life. u always be my inspiration!

thanx so much for everything. thanx so much for being there when i need u. thanx so much for ur help and support. i don't know how to repay u dear. i really appreciate all u have done to me. it's too much and i'm really glad i'm in love with u and soo in love with u.

harap jodoh kite berpanjangan dan rasa cinta tu kekal smpai akhir hayat kite. insyaAllah. i always pray for the best of us! Amin~

i just can't wait for our next step. i'm really looking fwd to it. soooo excited! moga semua dipermudahkan, insyaAllah.

jika cinta ini milikmu dan Dia, insyaAllah it will stay forever. let's us pray and improve ourself.

love u lots,

theONLYme

berserah~

salam to all.

da lame tak update blog, pastu wat title cmtu kan! sje bikin gempak! hehehe.

actually, aku tgh jiwa kacau ni. tp bile dpt nasihat dr Mr.Bf, benda tu takde la jiwa kacau sgt. cume, biase la, pompuan ni kn suke sgt mengharap pde benda2 yg blum tentu. haaa, aku la org nye tu. byk sgt benda yg aku cepat letakkan harapan. klu ikotkn, bagus sbnrnye ade perasaan tu, sbb bleh wat kite jd lg semangat and working hard for it. tp bile fikir the other side, cm looser gile la plak! adeh. susah jgk kn? sbnrnye sume tu terpulang pde diri masing2 jgk.

ape benda yg aku merepek kt atas tu kn? act, aku merepek psl keje laa. klu korg perasan, stat dr aku keje smpai skang entry jiwa kacau je mesti psl kerja! haih. nk wat cane, kerja kn penting bg sume org sbb itu la periuk nasi kite kn. klu bukan melibatkn periuk nasi, aku takde nye nk jiwa2 kacau ni. dok umah goyang kaki duit masyuk, haaa, sape taknak kn?? tp BERANGAN je la boleh der!!! huhuhu~

*biz MLM tu lain cite laaaa. huhuhu*

last week, friday, aku gi interview tp tak gi jauh pn. kt HR tmpt aku jgk! hehehe. biase la, kl ade email open position, tgk cm ade kene mengena aku apply je laa. so, aku apply 1 position ni, sbg senior. aku sedar diri aku, bru setahun jagung, tak sampai setahun pn lg, ade hati apply jadi senior! hahahahaha. well, aku takde la nak sgt, tp memandangkan kwn2 aku yg dah senior beria suro apply, aku apply je laa, saje nk cube nasib. and kebetulan tmpt aku tu da short senior jgk, so aku fikir positif je la kn, tak kire la aku bru keje 8bln pn. huhu. so, interview tu aku rse ok laa. boleh je jawab. tp dihujung2 interview, bos aku ckp, "if u tak dapat, don't be upset, try again nxt time". klu korg la kt tmpt aku, ape korg nk jawab?? tell me please! huhu. lps bos aku ckp cmtu je aku da rse and instinct aku same mcm mse aku dok dlm OA dlu. NO SUPPORT!

but aku still berharap jgk psl position tu smpai aku tolak 1 lagi interview kt Citibank. reason sbb aku da suke keje kt situ and aku kn dpt smbg Master. so, lebih mudah keje kt tmpt skang klu nk compare ngn tmpt lain. tp td, ade short meeting, skali lg aku rse mcm yg aku penah rse kt atas. aku agak down jgk la. boss ckp kene be outstanding la, kene tau keje senior laa, kene compete laa. so, kt situ da terang2 la aku takkan dpt position tu. nevermind! aku tak kisah dah. penat keje aku ni dorg tau ke? dorg nk suro work hard lg? haa, tambah org dlu, baru ade mase aku nk blaja keje senior ke, keje manager ke. ni kerja pn buat utk 2 org, klu da msuk pg bute pkul7 tu larat ke nk dok ofis smpai mlm jgk? dgn error lg! come on, fikir laa skit. fikir org lain. yes, compete and enhance knowledge tu penting, but be fair laa.

Mr.Bf ckp mase pujuk aku tgh down, "u kn ade aim u, abiskan Master u dlu, during that time klu ade pape offer just grab and try, yg penting GOAL u tu". haih. itu sebab aku syg die. die lebih phm aku mcm mane. dgn die jgk la aku blaja benti berharap and just go with the flow. same goes to our wedding. bukan la tak berharap lgsg, but hrprn tu jgn tggi menggunung. atas nasihat die, aku terus semangat balik. thanx so much baby!

so, kesimpulannye, lantak pi laa. aku da malas nk pk. aku dah wat part aku and bia la kwn aku lg 2 org tu compete jd senior. aku da surrender dah. penat! nk cri keje lain, tp nnti dlu la wat mse ni. tahan selagi mampu. org yg dok tmpt tggi ni kdg2 die lupe perasaan org bwh even dlu pn die dtg dr bwh jgk! hmm. aku nk fokus utk MBA aku dlu. moga Allah permudahkan segala nye utk aku. Amin~

[notaku: i need vacation!!!!!!!!!]

excited~

salam to all.

aku ni memanjang laa excited kn? hehehe. well, aku excited sbb mak aku ckp surat dari UPM da smpai. huhu.

Alhamdulillah, syukur~

lps tu, ade lg benda yg excited. guess what?? hahahahaha. nnti aku cite k. please kwn2, doakan aku berjaya dan doakan urusan aku dipermudahkan. Amin~

[notaku: perlu lebih bersyukur kepadaNya. terlalu byk rezeki turun dariNya. Alhamdulillah~]

serius planning~

salam to all.

lately kt FB aku ade isu HOT skit. hahahahaha. takde la HOT sgt, cume tak sangke. tu je. and cukup la mggu tu je isu tu HOT. after this it will be silent until the times come! hehehe.

actually, last week, tgh rehat2 mak aku tibe meREQUEST sesuatu. bile dengar tu cm, okay je. tp bile pk balik cm, WHAT????????

isu ape? well, umur mcm aku ni, isu ape lg yg HOT? da tentu la KAWEN. huhu. sebenarnye, hal ni mmg da bincang pn ngn Mr.Bf, cume aku je yg tak amik port. after the "incident", aku da malas nk amik port and malas nk berharap. aku just anggap ape yg Mr.Bf ckp tu sekadar cakap and tak maksud kn. (sorry baby!) ye laa, aku takut, takut kalau2 benda yg same jd lg. and btul jgk, tahun depan tu lambat lg. mcm2 bleh jadi. hmmm. berdoa byk2 moga Allah pjgkn jodoh dan permudahkan segala urusan. Amin~

so, as of now, planning kitorg tak lari jauh pn ngn permintaan mak. so, Mr.Bf ckp ok. jadinye, utk tahun ini, sume kene senyap ok! jgn tnye2 sbb aku nk fokus kt belajar dlu. eh? blaja? hahahaha. aku da jd student blk stat nxt month! sooooo excited! tak sabar~

[notaku: stat menyimpan! kaja!!!!]

life balancing~

salam to all.

it's been a while, many things happen, indescribable.

MBA - Alhamdulillah. finally, aku dpt jgk smbg MBA major in Finance kt UPM. kelas every weekdays, itu kate senior aku. hehe. act, aku still menunggu surat official from UPM. then bru la bleh nk cek jadual sume. mengikut nasihat senior, Liyana, better try bwk 2 subjek dlu utk 1st sem. tgk dlu flow cane. dlm mse yg same, bleh score dlu kn. nxt sem nye, bru pulun! hehehe. InsyaAllah, moga dipermudahkan sume dan moga aku cekal & tabah utk abiskn blaja. ye laa, part time student. kene balance la kerja ngn study kn. insyaAllah, tempoh 2 thn tu aku akan cube abis on time.

baru nk lega psl MBA. mak request something. act, aku tak tau cane nk cite. tp cukup la klu aku ckp, aku perlu berbincang balik ngn Mr.Bf. because its about future, our future. moga sume nye dipermudahkan Allah, InsyaAllah.

[notaku: buntu~]

rest in peace~

we lost our great & sporting Boss forever,

*22 Jan 2011 - collapse and kene tahan kt ICU, PPUM

*23 Jan 2011 - still comma

*24 Jan 2011 - he's condition become more critical at once before it become stable

*25 Jan 2011 - he's GONE

*26 Jan 2011 - pengebumian di Cheras Baru

kami akan merindui mu Boss. moga ditempatkan dikalangan org2 yg beriman. Al-Fatihah~